CaN YoU EvEr lEaVe bEhInD YoUr pAsT???

             Everybody makes mistakes, right? Most are despicable but still some turn out to be lovely. Like for example, dating a stranger who turns out to be your Mr. Right few years later. You wont categorize it as a mistake at all in this case, i guess. It`ll be called making the right decision, choosing the best thing for yourself from a handful of bad ones. still , we make mistakes. I mean, the things which we regret doing later. Things which usually upsets our beloved ones. Things which make us lie to our friends and family. Things for which we imply that we cant ever forgive ourselves. I believe even you would have done at least one thing which you count as a major mistake,which you regret till date! Because I do...and everyone I know does. Its the way life conducts. Its the way god has probably chosen to teach us life`s crucial lessons.
              How do you repent things? How do you wish if things could correct themselves on their own? How do you wish if only life came with a free magic eraser to delete those ugly things? We just keep telling IF ONLY...these are those things that you can never forgive yourself for. You want to crawl beneath your sheets in the bedroom and stay ther FOREVER!
              Because the choice has been made and you feel powerless. You, the victim of your own mistakes, keep wishing, if only I had not done that...if only i had stopped him...if only I had realised this when there was still time...and this is how the never-ending ghost of your past starts coming after you. And you never seem to escape it.
               And then finally, you get a gift from god...because he saw that you were secretly crying. He knows that you dont deserve all this and wanted to cheer you up. God loves you deeply. He sends you flowers every spring. that gift may come in any form...expected or unexpected....in the form of a special person or a letter from a special person, a call from a long lost friend or a sorry note from your ex with whom you still are deeply in love with and cant possibly ever get over. That thing, whatever it is, makes you feel like you are the king/queen of the world, makes you feel like life was incomplete before! And you end up doing the most impossible thing known to you. You start forgiving yourself for your mistakes. You get over everything bad that ever happened to you. You stop cursing. Not even in your mind you curse people anymore. You are replaced by a good you, a happy you!
               And after few months, when you had started feeling like you had taken a rebirth and those bad things never existed, he/she comes to you and ask,"Why did you do that?" and then you realise you were wrong. You realise that you can actually never beat your past. Because your present, the new reminder of your past, can never get over it.