CaN YoU EvEr lEaVe bEhInD YoUr pAsT???

             Everybody makes mistakes, right? Most are despicable but still some turn out to be lovely. Like for example, dating a stranger who turns out to be your Mr. Right few years later. You wont categorize it as a mistake at all in this case, i guess. It`ll be called making the right decision, choosing the best thing for yourself from a handful of bad ones. still , we make mistakes. I mean, the things which we regret doing later. Things which usually upsets our beloved ones. Things which make us lie to our friends and family. Things for which we imply that we cant ever forgive ourselves. I believe even you would have done at least one thing which you count as a major mistake,which you regret till date! Because I do...and everyone I know does. Its the way life conducts. Its the way god has probably chosen to teach us life`s crucial lessons.
              How do you repent things? How do you wish if things could correct themselves on their own? How do you wish if only life came with a free magic eraser to delete those ugly things? We just keep telling IF ONLY...these are those things that you can never forgive yourself for. You want to crawl beneath your sheets in the bedroom and stay ther FOREVER!
              Because the choice has been made and you feel powerless. You, the victim of your own mistakes, keep wishing, if only I had not done that...if only i had stopped him...if only I had realised this when there was still time...and this is how the never-ending ghost of your past starts coming after you. And you never seem to escape it.
               And then finally, you get a gift from god...because he saw that you were secretly crying. He knows that you dont deserve all this and wanted to cheer you up. God loves you deeply. He sends you flowers every spring. that gift may come in any form...expected or unexpected....in the form of a special person or a letter from a special person, a call from a long lost friend or a sorry note from your ex with whom you still are deeply in love with and cant possibly ever get over. That thing, whatever it is, makes you feel like you are the king/queen of the world, makes you feel like life was incomplete before! And you end up doing the most impossible thing known to you. You start forgiving yourself for your mistakes. You get over everything bad that ever happened to you. You stop cursing. Not even in your mind you curse people anymore. You are replaced by a good you, a happy you!
               And after few months, when you had started feeling like you had taken a rebirth and those bad things never existed, he/she comes to you and ask,"Why did you do that?" and then you realise you were wrong. You realise that you can actually never beat your past. Because your present, the new reminder of your past, can never get over it.

ThAt wHiCh i lIkE To cAlL GoD

Life was smooth. Absolutely picture perfect!Thats when it happened. I just made one wrong choice and deleted those best assets I had in my life. I sabotaged my own happiness, pushed my courage too far but ended up curling in my bedroom hugging a bolster and wiping away my tears in iniquity.All alone...Alone I was and it was DARK. So dark that it engulfed all the light, life and senses present in that room making it completely dead and dumb.
And then I heard this little voice. As if some faint voice was trying to communicate with me from inside my own head. And i focused.
It occured to me that who doesn`t make mistakes? Everybody does. I should not regret my decisions because I felt that it was the best thing to do at that time, else I wouldn`t have done it!
Its so easy to tell others but it was bloody tough to be the subject of application at that time. I wondered how easy it is imagine but its different to live under that shadow.
Its damn easy to ditch your parents and easier to your best friends but its impossible to ditch your inner sense. It knows you more than anyone has or anyone can ever know you. Its there with you since the time you were kicking in your mom`s womb. It can feel your tears and it can sense you smiling at your own stupidity. It can read your thoughts and it knows all your dark secrets. It knows about your first crush and also about your first heartbreak. It knows who is your favourite movie star and it knows what you really want to be. It knows about your favourite memories and it also about your favourite dishes. In short, its your best friend. It has shared everything in your life with you. Its your inner sense, god`s best gift to us. Its the energy of the universe, the voice of god and the sound of human heart.
It was that inner sense which was communicating with me at that time. And I had been talking to it ever since. It still continues to guide me and I suggest everyone to listen to their inner sense, which I call GOD.

FiRsT AtTeMpT

Well... Ummm... HI there!
Welcome to my blog...and i really dont know what to type right now when it is actually needed. But i was least fitted out with anything useful for that matter at THIS very moment. I mean, who plans everything, right?
At least I never practically was the best planner. Not in this birth! So how it happened was I just came across a blog in this site and felt like sharing my thoughts (and irritating a few) with you guys....my very original thoughts, authentically MINE. Thats it! thats what it was all about. I possibly cannot give up thinking too much it seems.On an average, every human has about 60,000 thoughts in his head in one day. But for me, I`m sure its way higher than a 5-digit integer. I hope you`ll find them interesting. Looking forward to write more...Till then
Have fun!